Living In Love

   Last night, I was cuddled until I could hardly keep my eyes open. I was warm and safe, with long, comfortable arms wrapped around me snugly. And I realized, -as I do every beautiful, honeyed, glorious day of my current life -that love is far more splendid than I ever believed it could be.

     I don’t know how to articulate everything I’ve been feeling and experiencing these past few months because it seems so beyond any ability to adequately describe. My life has been a wash of wonderful, with sweet notes left on my car and warm goodnight kisses pressed against my forehead. How do you convey a sense of consistent, complete calm, a safety and security that binds your heart and emotions in a steadying, intangible hug of unconditional love and understanding? How do you share so many winks, giggles and stressed tears with someone and not feel your heart wrap around him and be cradled in his loving care. How do you respond when you have that oh-so-intimidating feeling of being stared at and you look up only to realize your -almost husband- has been admiring you for minutes with the sweetest one-sided smile.

    

  I think I’m in love.

   And it is SO much better than anyone told me it would be.

But I’m also finding.. as wedding planning, school, work, grad school applications, etc.  continue at full speed ahead… that parts of life are exhausting, and love is so much more important than cuddling and kisses on the forehead. It is the buttress that carries one through the good, the bad and the ugly;  the lifeline when exhaustion, sickness or sadness linger for a time. Love is strength in addition to happiness, and when it is sincere…it can be boundless.

    These days, we have been sleepy, stretched to our limits, a little stressed (that 499th million invitation is still not addressed!), snacking on leftover takeout and taking every available opportunity to each something with sugar in it… wedding diet, you were fun for a day or so!

   As tuckered out as we feel… living in love is pretty wonderful… and it’s going to be a much bigger adventure than we ever dreamed it could be.